The day for IELTS after one week preparation

ya!
ONE WEEK!
ONE WEEK!!!!!!

i suffered a lot.
cuz i was starting from zero.

i spent one whole day doing five practices of listening and reading test. plus one essay.
and then, i have no extra time to do corrections. which is very very bad.

i spent another whole day to read band 8 essays and learn some vocab.

then, sleep earlier for me to be in good condition on the next morning.

but then.
i've been too nervous about the test.cuz it's my first time to prepare for an exam just in one week time.
i woke up extremely early in 2am. = =zzz that's crazy.
i tot it's 6 am actually. then i wonder why my alarm wasnt ringing yet.
watched at the phone "2.1+ am"
then go back to sleep

wake up again.
it's the time liao. i have to go take bath and get prepared.
after taking bath, look at the phone

-------------4.00 + am-----------------------

HA?!

= =zzzzz

what i'm doing?

well....go back to sleep again. what to do.

haiz.
this morning...first reach there.

met a guy.then another guy with smoking smell.
= =zzz

but then that guy start talking to us.
three of us are the only group there chatting.
the other candidates just stand there...........doing nth.

well....nice to meet them as they help to release my stress.











hmmmm.....
the test quite ok lah.
varies in difficulties from sections to sections.
so i cant say it's difficult or easy.
u know....it's IELTS!
not MUET~
= =zzzz

it's standard. wont fluctuate like Malaysia exams.


but i think i did the worst in speaking test though many say it's the easiest.

cuz i've been affected by the examiner's face kua....
she's tired.
i can see from her face.
that make me nervous as i'm too afraid i'll make her feel more boring.

and this indeed do happen. = =zzz

whatever~

now i only can pray hard.
i've done my best.
cuz i've been studying hard for one week.
exclude myself from any activities.
do online searching a lot.
even purposely drive to my friend's house just to ask him few questions.

i hope i can get at least band 6.5. the best band 7.
cuz tat's the min. requirement for me to enter Aus uni.

i dun wan to retake the test as it's too expensive.

pray for the best.
i just dun wan to fail to reach the requirement. wont ask for more. =)

A LOT TO DO AR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A LOT TO DO AR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so long holiday....

before this month boring till wanna lao sai....


now....suddenly so many things come together.

ngaiti................................................

AIYAYAYAYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


IELTS, food charity, frens bday, MCE, uni things, drawings, designs, comics...............
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

= =zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz






bless me bless me bless me.

of course some of the things i cant complete.

like the design i've been delaying for months already

PAISEH AR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

me feel so guilty.

boh bian.
design is about INSPIRATION
= =zzz sai ar.

and i dun have advanced tools to do them.
so i'm SLOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!
EXTREMELY SLOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my laptop lag some more = =zzz
sai ar.

aiyayayayaya....and my comic is progressing slowly............= =zzz SAI AR!

not to mention bout drawing
- -zzz draw a little all are sai.
hard to start too. no inspiration at all.
so havent really start drawing anything except my comic = =zzz
sai ar.

Happy birthday

yo yo yo

it's your birthday

yo yo yo

it's ma birthday

HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

BER

tzu!

DEI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 I don't want cake.

i want this two.

hahahahaha

aiyah...................i dun celebrate one.
i just receive present nia~

AHAHAHA

thanks anyway for all wishes.


= =zzz the only thing tat makes me down on this day is...i have to go register for IELTS = =zzz

I'm still kinda lost where to go

today received a call from IDP which i never expect they'll call.

reject or accept?

i've been letting them wait for my ans for nearly two months?around like that.

= =zzz


all was because NUS haven't reply me.


yes, NUS is my first choice.
thought for biological science, MElbourne has higher ranking than NUS.

but for all reasons i've considered, i'll still prefer NUS.

why i'm so stubborn?
Aus seems to be better than Singapore.
and the cert ....looks better than Asian's....

well....
Singapore is nearer to MAlaysia.
and it's like a sandwich. It's easier to go either west Malaysia or east Malaysia.
means, it's easier to go home or visit my friends.

and...it's cheaper.
as the rate......Singapore is lower. 2 plus. Aus got 3 plus. - -zzz
and it's much harder to get scholarship for Aus uni.

and i know Singapore better than Aus.
and Singapore speaks two languages instead of only English for Aus.

and the accent...............though we actually can get biasa with Aus English...
but the first year....i'll definitely suffer a lot more than it'll be in Singapore.

and...bully cases....yes...even u can avoid it in Malaysia.
but it'll be worse in Aus. and there....i'm alone.
Singapore i still got my siblings over there......Aus.....i'm just alone T_T.....

and the culture shock for sure....for the first year.

and my family can visit me more oftenly if i go Singapore.
if i go to Aus.....i guess me myself wont go home frequently.
might end up working there....studying hard like an insane.
and finish studying as fast as possible.

cuz my sis's fren complete her master just by one year plus.
she completed her courses by 2 to 3 years. which actual duration is around 4 to 5 years.
and now she's already working. and she's only 24. or 25. i'm not really sure.

still....she's young and she ALREADY COMPLETE HER MASTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


well.....maybe tat's harder for science subjects as there's more research and experiments need to be conducted. which makes the student harder to complete the course much earlier. even harder to student who wanna study Master for science subjects. cuz need to spend every minutes in the lab. and the outcomes are hard to be collected. esp bio-related experiments. cuz mostly related to living things and that consume a lot of time for the reactions to occur and complete. and hard to get success. cuz it's hard to control.

hmmmm....................but i'll try my best to complete the course as earlier as possible. IF i go to study at Aus.

haiz.

still cant decide.

i hope NUS can faster give me an answer.

now i'm kinda wanna dare myself to just go to MElbourne without caring bout NUS.

but those things that i considered make me hesitate......

T_T and IELTS too.......
though it's about the same as MUET....
but i'm REALLY not a good student with GOOD English.
my standard is ok ok nia.
i speak simple English with lots of grammatical mistakes.

and i WORKED VERY HARD tat i only can get low band 5 for MUET.

Melbourne requires me to get higher than band 6.5

= =zzzz just one band higher...yes....just one band higher....

just one band HIGHER UR HEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

been so long time din study my English , my English is now SUCKS!
i forgot all the vocab i learnt...and i din learn much.- -zzz

and my pronounciation has becoming very weird...........my tongue tangled.

if i din practise my English again.....i'll only get band 4 for MUET......

which is much further from the aim i shud reach for IELTS....

yeah....my aunt say...though u din reach the target...they'll still let u in just bcause they wan money. = =zzz
but can reach the target is safer.

and wad if they really wan me to reach the target?
= =zzz and it's not cheap to sit for the test.
if i fail....i nid to spend another RM 500 plus for the test again.








haiz...............................i'm lost.
i nid to prepare myself before i go a place to do sth.
now i dunno where i'm heading to.
just because NUS haven't give me a reply.

Singapore? Australia? MAlaysia?

there was time i imagine myself at Singapore.

then i changed to wad if i stay in Malaysia? one thing i can think of is i dun nid to pay that much for fees.

now i'm preparing myself to Australia. but still leave some space for Singapore.
and even Malaysia.

i'm tired.
though i din work.

i'm mentally busy.
this is more tiring.

STOP HARASSING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

= =".......give me an ans pls~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ as soon as possible!!!!!!!

破了洞的氧气筒

My new comic.



actually i have a lot of comic that i din start drawing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!





this comic is motivated by a Japanese movie.



hopefully can finish them.

i got a bad habit.


do things never complete.


= =zzz


well...
this comic is the first that challenge me...


cuz it's about students who study about drugs and chemicals.

i needa search for informations bout those things.

cuz it's related.
about their reaction, especially poisons.
what kind of poisons will cause what kind of death.

what chemicals can cause small explosion.
what kind of chemicals can cause explosion plus it's like poisons.

well.
needa study bout chemistry again.
haha.....

ngaiti.
ok also lah.
can study.

dun be so lazy before enter U.

hmmm......

now get another idea for myself.

after enter U.
i'm either studying bio-related courses or maths.

both are science.

but i still can keep drawing.

with those science knowledge,
i can draw comics bout science students!

and i'll sound pro cuz the terms i'm gonna use aren't cincai lai one.
muahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

see if i can do it.

i might be very busy with those assignments and exams.
but i think i shud be able to find time to draw.

cuz from wad i see....from my friends, my sister, my fotang friends...

they still got lot of time to go shopping and have fun.
so i shud be able to find time to do my arts thingy.

yeah!

i'm not going to say goodbye to my ARTS!

i've been leaving it for quite a long time. from SPM time till i finish STPM.

haiz.

kambateh neh.

i think i have to buy another new laptop that enable me to get PPS and Photoshop in it.

PPS to watch some anime and movies for ideas.
PHotoshop is for.....aiyah. very common. to edit my drawings lah.

and i need a printer that can scan my drawings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i can't scan any of my drawings now cuz i can't find the disc to install the printer things into my laptop.
and the cable to connect printer to my laptop isn't working.
the hole is too big that it cant fit well into the laptop hole....AHAHA! ngaiti...what hole.


well.
now my mission is to complete this comic.
but i still can't decide how to end the story.
should i let it be sad ending?
or happy ending?
if i ask my friends, they'll choose happy ending.

....ok also.
but tat's too normal.

see how.
maybe i'll toss a coin.

depends on my mood.


hmmm.....shud i bind it?see how.
i've just reach the second page.


JIA YOU AR!!!!

ps : Mochi...i salute u. let's jia you together! kambateh yo!

一千万里的那一个

还是失望



一直觉得自己要求太多


可是后来又觉得

不久时这样吗？

哪里来的要求多



我根本没要求到什么



或许是因为我没对他们要求什么

所以当我要要求些什么时，他们无法接受




马的


我只想做我自己


干吗不行？



我对陌生人才会客气，什么都说“yes"。

对朋友。。。客气什么？


我对你客气，那就不叫朋友。



我承认我之前做错。

不该对他们隐瞒自己的本性。



可是想想，
一开始本来就没那么熟，

我有什么理由不隐瞒？

当我觉得可以开始做我自己时，



他们却不能接受。




那。。。要怎么样？


改变原来的自己？



那我不是失去我自己？



不管了

我要做我自己

你讨厌也好


我就是我


人不能失去自我。



你想要我一直迁就你，做你想要的我。

那么，你就不要做我的朋友吧。



如果做你的朋友无法让我轻松，
我觉得我没有把你当朋友。


至今


我还没找到那个他。
一千万里的那一个。

没错，双子要找是很难。
所以我没有期待太多。

因为我不想失望太多。


我觉得朋友。。。
最强的就是，一个字都没说，对方就懂了。









我不觉得，是朋友就要一直在一起。
那样反而会产生反感。


每个人总要去自己该去的地方。

如果每天只能想要和朋友在一起。

他只能停留。

无法前进。

是朋友，就鼓励他，
想飞就飞。


想做什么就做什么。

如果两人之间出现“逼”。。。

那个不是朋友。
只是玩伴。
想玩就在一起，不想玩就逼你玩。


那是小孩的玩意儿。


年龄是现实。
请面对现实。

幼稚的心灵是能保持。
可是还是要成熟的处理事情，面对事情。

不能像小孩那样，
不想面对就大闹，逃避，让别人去解决。
不合你意就大哭，大吵。






有时真不明白，
我的性格还蛮明显的，
为什么有些人却会说 ：“咦～～～！！他竟然会这样！”
干！你认识我多少年了，我会这样你竟然不知道？

我发现，
在那些人的心中的我，
已经不是我了。

而是他们自己以为的我。

我原本的性格，
在他们的心中，变了。

变得不像样。


还有，
大家好像忘了

我脾气本来就很暴躁


我发脾气，
有多狂风暴雨

大家好像都忘了。




还有，为什么我说的话

很多人都听不进？

尤其是

不要那样，这样。。。。。。等等。。。对我。


大多数的人就是会 那样，这样。。。。。。等等。。。的对我。






太久没有发飙了。

应该飙一次。

tired

Sleepy~~~~

tired.....

*yawn*

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*YAWN*

but still stay in front of the laptop

*YAWN*