我已忘了

学会看人脸色
猜想他人的思想
他人举动的缘由
猜测他人下一步的动作

我已学会预料一个人的下一个动作
变得我已忘了惊喜。


我真的忘了。。。
那惊讶的感觉

变得太过冷静。






我无所谓

可是怕的是

别人以为我不在乎。

Finally ended that annoying assignment

HURRAY

ME FINALLY CAN SMELL THE HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'd finally finished the assignment and submitted!!!!!!!!!!!!
together with my another forum report!!!!

hooooorrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaayyy!

i want to taste the holiday!!!!!!!

though there's still an assignment and a lab report waiting for me

BUT I WANT TO "EAT" HOLIDAY FIRST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my hunger for holiday is killing me!!!!!!!

Assignment scares off the holiday mood.

Friday was the last day of uni and then straight into the holiday period.

everyone was happy
start planning for holiday trips
start their planning of having fun

but i totally got no feeling of holiday

cuz the "ASSIGNMENT" keep stuck in my head.
block my mood to link to "holiday"

i keep asking myself "Why don't i start doing assignment earlier?"

well.......
i was quite busy with some other subjects
and quizzes plus mid-sem test happened to rush to me without me realise
so i happened to be kelam-kabut when i realise those crazy things were running towards me

i was so lazy
i admit it......

so when i feel like starting to do the assignment.....(quite early.....the first few weeks after i know there's assignment)
i was already so kelam kabut and unable to start doing the assignment

but i was able to do some research bout the topics.

should say
there's so much obstacles that stop me doing this assignment smoothly.

at first i was late to this subject cuz i changed subject suddenly on the first week of uni
and due to the reason that everyone was busying with ERC (student centre)
me changing subject is delayed
cuz too much QUEUING! at last i just skipped the queue and ask the counter
" can i just get the overload form?"
thank goodness that nice guy say "yeah, sure! fill the form and pass it to me."
I SHUDNT QUEUE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wasted my time! it's like two days !

then when i got registered into the class....most of the people had already choose their assignment topic and i was just simply choose the topic without much understanding of what is happening.

weeks later i baru can catch up what we are required to do in our assignment
and soi soi.........................
bread the easiest topic.......cuz it's too easy....our lecturer wants us to compare two different bread.
that happened to be......the hardest topic.

*sigh*

so much happened and tasks were so concentrated on the week before mid-term break.
this is the style of Unimelb.
haiz................................

due to this.....
i'd thrown away everything just to focus on my mid sem test.....
and so...when my mid sem test was finally over, i nid to pick up wadever is thrown away by me
and there's too much to pick up
2 assignments
1 forum report
1 lab report
1 quiz
and they are due very soon after my mid sem test

i nid to rush like a cat chased by a bunch of fierce dogs...............

and for this assignment...the heaviest homework
i only got 3 days to complete.
i spent 1 whole day reading all the info i'd collected....even library books i'd borrowed....
and most of the books are USELESS!!!!
but got two are quite useful....thanks so much pun.
but then i realised i dun have much info collected
i feel like langgar wall

but then i choose to give up
just fill up the info by my own understanding. LOL

i spent another day just to extract the ideas i'd found and simply throw into my assignment
at the end of the day, i found that my assignment is just a mess and i have not much energy left to rearrange them
now...is the last day.......................................

look at the mess i did yesterday
i feel like langgar the wall again.

the most headache part of the assignment wasnt the description of bread fermentation...cuz that's the easiest part and well understood by everyone even if u dun study it.
the headache part is THE HISTORY OF BREAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
go to hell those websites and books!!!!!!!
they dun really mention bout history of bread!
i guess bread is just too old to be tracked when it was first raised.

then it happened i've no idea how to describe bread in my introduction.
it sounded the easiest part ever in every assignment....Introduction...why do you need so much time to think about it?
YEAH!!! WHY DO I NEED SO MUCH TIME TO THINK BOUT IT AND I STILL HAVENT COME OUT WITH A PROPER INTRODUCTION OF BREAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CUZ NOT MUCH PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD CAN UNDERSTAND THE HISTORY OF BREAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

we eat bread everyday and we don't understand it!!!!!!!!!

the HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

bread has successfully drive me crazy.
and there's totally no mood of holiday!

alright...i should continue with my assignment.

我是闷骚型...闷烧吧...

我总觉得
我很容易投入一件事

并且会认真地去做

可是每次都会有那~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~么多的冷屁股贴着
让我每次都很无奈啊！

为什么？！
为什么？！？！？！？！

你们就不能热情，热血一下吗？！
你不想有美好的回忆吗？
那么懒散随便。。。到头来只会complain!!!!!!

什么和什么!!!!!!!

算了

下次我自己玩

不想和你们分享了

和你们分享只会秒杀我的心情！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

我本来不老的

是你们！！！是你们！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

分分秒秒都在秒杀我的热血！！！

我的心底还住着顽固的调皮、热血小孩！！！
不管了
豁出去！

Holiday is getting near

Finally MST is over

but i still have

one 500 words report and one 1000 words assignment plus maths assignment waiting for me.

two of the 500 and 1000 going to due next monday.

sigh~

anyway

it's a great relief that MST is finally over

and Holiday is coming soon.

i'm still tired anyway

trying to follow back to the steps of the subjects (i abandoned them just to focus on my MST study)

i can't believe i'm still staying awake so late ( for me....sleep at 10am is the standard time.)

but i'm still waking up at 6.30am.

just when there's no morning classes....then i might lay lazily on my bed for few minutes.....

yeah...few minutes...ahahah

hmmmm.........................

i think other than those 3 hmwk...

i probably will have another report waiting for me after this Thursday which is tomorrow.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH~~~~~~~~~

whatever

let it be.

i can do it.

what i'm glad now is....

i'd done another task : Biochem CAL 2 quiz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

that's partly the reason i stay awake so late...

i have just finished the quiz and happily cross it out on my task-list-whiteboard which is on the door of my fridge!

originally got 4 important tasks...now only left 3. though it's still far away from total completion and one more is going to be added into the list

but I AM SO HAPPY I HAD FINALLY FINISHED ONE TASK!!!!!!!!!

that's a good start ya know?

and to have a happy life...you just need to be happy easily.

and after editing some pics and upload them on fb...

i'm going to bed with a big smile~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ =D

good night~

last 2nd day of preparation for Biochem MST

i'm here now in the library.......
Sunday

a day...which many ppl are everywhere else rather than in the lib.
which makes me quite happy cuz i dun like my studying place too crowded and noisy.
hehe

but i still cant really concentrate on my studies.
MST is coming soon
yet i havent finish reading all the notes

just reading

tons of names and chemicals and pathways to memorize

i dun think i'm prepared yet.

i just hope i can make it.
and do well

and pray that the MST is just MCQ.
not short ans typed questions.

pray hard
study hard
play hard later. =p

真的很莫名其妙

Ouran那让人感动的最后一集。。。
明明是happy ending
我却伤心的哭了起来

然后不断有疑问
“为什么呀？？？？？？”

或许，
是为了离开我的青春而哭泣吧。

从以前
我都很珍惜和朋友在一起的日子

大家为了考试
以生病为理由不去学校，在家温习
我却因为想见大家，放弃在家努力奋斗的机会，到学校班上去。。。。。

我喜欢
像个白痴那样和大家打闹。。。
嘻嘻哈哈的过每一天
玩些幼稚的游戏
说着天真浪漫的梦想

现在这些
完完全全离我而去

我
现在在这发展进步的城市里
面对的大家
都是满脑子 “未来” 的大学生们。。。还有满脑子“利益，金钱”的大人们。。。

极度让我不喜欢。

对不起
我是个
表面非常有理智
内心非常天真烂漫

我喜欢在马来西亚的大家的热情，体谅
不喜欢这大城市里的冷漠与效率要求

这是最大的因素，
我一点也不想留在这里。

我最在乎
彼此之间的感情

感情好
再刁难，再麻烦的事，都会不顾一切的帮你完成。

感情不好
再顺手，再容易的事，我都觉得麻烦。

偏偏
能和我感情极好的人。。。。。。。
越来越少。

因为越接近大人的世界
越发现，大部分的人，以“利益”为前提和你认识。

能让我舒服的交朋友的人
已经越来越少了。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

所以，
我才哭泣吧。

trying to throw all my anger here instead of carrying it along with me

First time in Uni
that i'm so stressful and helpless

the irony is, this sem suppose is the easiest sem i should have for the three years. cuz i only got one tough and heavy subject : Biochemistry and Molecular Biology.
the others are just elective subjects which are completely nothing to do with my major.

But i guess those subjects are too easy, that's why teachers in charged...........aren't that serious like teachers in other subject, for my case, Biochem.

I still can't get to catch what is the focus of the subjects...and now is already the middle of semester.
I'm totally have no idea what the subjects wan to present and let us have an idea of what this subject is about.

I can't believe i'm struggling with that two subjects....
one is just a simple subject with no prerequisite and is available as breadth subject for students from Commerce, Arts, Music.....etc.....
one is another simple breadth subject for students with Biology background.

People might give reason like "Oh, it's because you overloaded this semester, that's why you suffer."
i'll tell you, that's definitely not the reason.

I know myself very well.
and if you need proof,
I'll tell you how much i get for every single subjects in last semester. and, same, i overloaded too in last sem.
And, last sem, there's two heavy subjects for me. two other quite important subjects for me. last one is breadth subject.
Compare to this sem, I only got one heavy subject, one biotech, one maths, two breadth subjects : food microb and japanese.

comparatively, it's reasonable to say this sem is much much easier than last sem.

but my semester 2 has just get ruined.
partly because i was too lazy and procrastinated .....
but i'm not totally lazy.
i complete every quizzes and reports before the expired day. i never do last minute work.
i'll complete them as earlier as possible.

but now....
it's not whether u're lazy or not.
the problem is....there's too much waiting. Those waiting are the reason that i can't proceed properly on my studies.....and makes me looks like i'm procrastinating....
and most of the waiting are not promising.
they were fruitless.
I tried so many times to ask questions to clear up my mind....
but they just failed me so many times.

now i even get rejected to ask questions.

i find it ridiculous to hear people saying they are totally fine for u to make appointment with them and they would like to help to solve any problems.
but i tried to do the emailing.....and i didn't get immediate reply. even.....some didn't reply at all.

what's the point?
if you can't do it, don't make promises.
if you're that busy, but wish to help, think of another way that's best for you and me.
It's not like I'm so stubborn and must find you to solve my problem.
I just want to get my doubts all solved instead of me just thinking bout all the possible answers and not sure whether my thinking is alright....till i ended the semester, i still didn't get the answer.
As long as my doubts can be solved, why not?
reply my email. or answer my questions during the lectures......
or some other ways u find it convenient.....


Sincerely, I hate teachers who teach just for the sake of MONEY.
i hate people without responsibilities.
esp those who simply and happily make promises and announce the cancellation of promises later.

Teachers are the most 伟大人物。无人能比。
but money had changed too much of the directions of many things.
Many teachers nowadays teach for Money.
not only teachers...many aspects....
scientists....industries...companies...engineers....restaurants...artists...photographers....

Money is too strong and "seductive".
it's not that Money equals evil. but the stupidity of human had made Money equivalent to Evil.
I hate this. that's why...i'm not hesitated to becoming a researcher...a scientist.

well, nobody will have any idea of what will happen in the future.
but not much people realise that.
tat's the part i hate the world for.

there's too much stupid ppl who never realise they are too stupid to live on the Earth.
destroying the Earth and claim themselves saving the Earth.

such a sad world.
I'll try to ignore them and look at the bright side of this world.