FINISH EXAM!!!!!! i love going to school. not for exam.

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FINALLY ENDED THE TORTURING PERIOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bio had ended well
maths made me cry
chem excited me.

THEY ARE ALL OUT OF EXPECTATION!
except for bio is still ok ok......kinda expected.
just didn't expect the Apek's topics are quite easy....CUZ HE GAVE SO MANY TIPS DURING THE LECTURES!
thanks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and big thanks to the one that set the questions for Chem 10003 examination paper.
I think it's easy when compared to past years......
T_T
BIG THANKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the only subject i'm not satisfied is the Maths.
i'm always not satisfied with Maths exam.
even back in STPM.

dunno y.....
maybe i did too well during normal time ...
so i got no worries on it
and so i got no stress from it
and so i didn't learn properly....
and so i'm not trained well for the exam. = =zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
I MUST TAKE U DOWN, MATHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway....
congrats to myself tat i'd made it thru the torturing period....
it's really torturing.
start at the first week....end at the last week....
just for three papers....= =zzzz ppl early early ended their exam and had parties....

cincai la...
i can have my party now.
but this month i'm poor.....
spent all the money for sth.....
sth important...
so cant blame....
T_T

gonna eat tauge for the whole week.....
and just for lunch. breakfast just some bread and oat.
healthy!
haha......
i think i'm gonna lack of some minerals and vit....
unbalanced meals....
wadever....i'm going back to my country next week...
doens't matter.
i won't die. =p

relax now.....
opps...
gonna pack my luggage. =D

Exam time

Guess wat.....

- -zzz i got so excited and motivated.....
study so hard to aim for scholarship.....

but i did too hard tat i throw out all my power during the first exam (Bio)....

now two more left...
still got two more left......

and i got no more power....
= =zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz


nid to restore it....
IT IS SO HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and the time for me to wait till the next two exam is so long.
making me lazy to study.
T_T....
damn it motivation come back......

i have to get scholarship~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


bless me bless you bless everyone.
JIA YOU EVERYONE!
WE MUST GET H1 FOR EVERY SUBJECTS!!!!
I MUST GET SCHOLARSHIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after three months. EXAM

I just realised HOW SHORT it is since I arrived here in Melbourne and start studying.
You hardly can feel the speed but they are Indeed moving fast!

they are very relaxing....and u feel like everything is proceeding slow here.
but in fact....
u'd done a lot of things.
and u'd learnt a lot of things.

and now....
TADA!!!!!!!!!

it's near EXAM time already . = =zzzzz
this feels awkward.
really awkward.

though i biasa sudah in f6.
but here...is much faster.
and they dun have study month for u.
they finish teaching, start exam

there's only one week time for u to do all the revision by URSELF.

tat's why i feel awkward.
cuz back in secondary life i had....
we all got at least one whole month to do revision together with teachers.
we'll all in the class...discussing and do lots of exercises...
even group studies.........................

here...............................................
nope....no more.
i understand this is UNIVERSITY life. no more secondary.
totally no more spoon feeding.
but i nid time to biasa with it.

and i'm not prepared for the exam too...

if just to pass the subject.
i think i can.
and i dun nid to prepare much.

but wad i wan is..........................
scholarship.
and they very kiam siap.
so.....i have to make sure i can get all H1 (they tell me one...just like A1) for all my subjects to get the scholarship.

it's hard.
but still got chance.
i'll try hard.
as long as there's chance.
no harm trying.
and i'm here to study.
main purpose is not to enjoy life.


anyway....
though i actually thirst for knowledge.
i can't get to learn everything i wan.
cuz the time is not enuf.
cuz i nid to always be prepared for the final exam.

i tried to learn sth extra....
but then i found that i'd wasted my time studying sth tat is not examinable.
i'll love to learn them
but when i realise how much time i'd left for the preparation of exam.....
i regret.

it's....quite wasteful to not learn sth extra when it's there......

anyway............i'll try my best to learn them after the exam. HAHA
this is not insane or crazy or mind rosak.
it's THIRST for knowledge.
and i pay for it!!!
i shud learn as much as possible.
get as much as i can.
like u pay for buffet........

hiak hiak hiak.

Expensive!

was searching for it....

but then saw the price....

= =zzz wad the heck....

so decided not to buy.

maybe consider bring some from Msia. = =...

things here are really expensive

esp when u convert back to RM.

and lagi cham is u din work here...

all ur money income are from RM to AUD.

and ppl in Msia work hard hard till half dead...

the money earned get spent just in a few minutes.

everything here are about money and contracts.

and they do sales very lihai.

no like in Msia kena ppl hate one. HAHA

anyway.......................

being very fan by money problems...

it's not they fan me..

it's me fan myself.

cuz thinking of all the high living expenses

plus the damn high fees....

a lot of fees............................

haiz......

really dunno wad to do.

i wish someone can tell me what to do.

and i tot my parents can

but they make me confuse. = =zzz

so i pray everyday.................

wish to solve my problems well.....

instead of simply end them and regret later.

just like the broadband i bought previously...

i can't use it in my house. only nid to shift it to some other places then i can use.

i still can use...but it's troublesome tat i can't online in my room.

haiz....wish to sell it out and get back the homeline.

the most i dun watch so much video loh

me very use to it one....

back in f6....everyday was just studying and reading and hmwk....

i din let myself watch tv....

and i'm used to it already.

and this actually let me can concentrate on my studies more....

haiz....wad to do...already buy liao. = =zzzz use it to download movies and watch during i'm pek cek with the studies. wanna take a "breath"....

wish i can arrange everything well in here la....

hope i dun spend too much.

jia you.

amitabha.

2nd round with Mochi

YES! I win!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

here are some of the first round making mochi one.

really a failure u can see it clearly from the pics below.

the "dough" soft like watery shit....the choco got harden ...what a big contrast. = = zzz

same. choco mochi. but already the best out of those failures.

shit loh~~~~~~~~~~

quite good but the shape is....= =zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

choco too.

all these are mainly strawberry one. shitty~~~~~

got hole.

fail.

FAIL!

FAIL AR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Then i behsong

so decided to make another round.

FIGHT WITH MOCHI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i still got ingredient left mah~~~~ so make them loh.

my main aim is to share with fren punya.

first round unable to share with frens.

so do 2nd round loh

2nd round i'm very steady liao.

so, of course,

i win the battle.

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just i shud put more sugar and the strawberry shud get sweet one.

but bo bien, now in Aus the weather is still cold.

hard to get sweet strawberry.

mostly are still small and darker in colour.

not bad liao lah....haha

so like that loh. this round made less. this container--bring for fren one.

cuz after that, i'll have group study with frens.

hehe.......

looks much better.

Daifuku~~~ izzit? haha...can't really remember the name. =p

looks nice leh????????????

hehehehe.....macam buy from shop one ho??? haha....no la. shop one probably more pretty.

but i'm satisfied liao............

REALY SATISFICATION!!!!!!!!!!!

big smile =D

and this end my holiday~

tomolo start going back to uni for classes.

exam havent over.

nope..it's not yet here.

but soon.

after fours weeks like that.

wadever  - -zzz get satisfied with my mochi first. =D

and at least i did sth during my holiday instead of blindly studying for the whole two weeks.

bye bye

Today i fight with mochi. and i lose.

 Mochi day

two weeks holiday. wad i've been doing was mainly studying.

many reasons for it.

lazy to explain. haha

anyway....i'm not that insane too. I'd planned to do this. and get myself relax for one whole day.

so i bought many stuff for mochi making.

normally ppl make red bean mochi or green tea mochi.

well...i got some red bean paste. but dunno if there's green tea paste available.

but i'm not that simple one. hohoho

i'd learnt bout red bean paste with strawberry in mochi.

so i bought some strawberry. and also chocolate paste

and ice-cream and yogurt.

muahahahaha. wanna try sth different mah~

well...it's my first time making mochi.

i know it's too much for a beginner.

but aiya.....it's quite easy so ...nvm.

but somehow i look down too much on it.

that's why i lose in this fight. = =zzz

at first, i put too much water for my mochi.

so the "dough" gets too sticky and "fragile"...l0l

no la...it's...not that solid that it can collapse very easily which makes my mochi all flat down and not round.

i'd put LOTS and LOTS of starch on them to preven them sticking to each other.

but somehow it's not enough. they still stick. = =zzz damn it.

and the ice-cream mochi....... here it is.

i found that the ice-cream starts melting once i put them on the "dough".

after i wrap them, they start melting more and flow out.

so i only managed to make three. and quickly put them into the freezer.

= =zzz and gave up doing icecream mochi. and since for ice-cream it's like that. i gave up on yogurt too.

so i just stick to the chocolate and red bean paste.

but the chocolate didn't go that well too cuz the paste is...not hard too.

so the whole thing collapse. = = zzz

at lasst....i just stick to the strawberry with red bean paste. but they all tend to stick to each other.

i dun have a good container and i have to stack them up.

= =zzz so...........................i get myself into trouble.

wadever. next time i'll try again.

this one, icecream mochi. i put the chocolate paste in the middle of icecream.

after get them out from the freezer, the ice-cream starts melting again.

but the chocolate paste get hardened. = =zzz the hell.....

another ice cream mochi with choco.

this is how it looks before i cut it.

and finally yogurt.

Yo....back here touch touch update xia. not going to let my blog die. so...this time. FOOD

I got two weeks holiday and others got only one week.

But then, I didn't play around. only went for Sing K with frens on monday.

then go out for dinner.

that's my holiday.

the other time, i was studying. i'm now studying too.

crazily studying during holiday.

ppl think i'm freak.

well....i tot that's normal.

cuz that's f6 style.

i still can't change the habit huh....

well

didn't update my blog quite a long time liao.

upload some food pics loh.

food in melbourne. but not melbourne's food. haha.

Was having group study and during lunch time, my Fren brought me and another fren to this place to have this. quite delicious. nice.

I just wanna eat tang yuan. so bought a pack of it and cooked and eat it all by myself.

freak. but...haiya. just 8 of them. alang alang mah. so eat it up all by myself loh.

my first made sushi in melbourne i think. it's giant sushi.

can't really see the size here.

but it's really huge.my hand can hardly grab it fully. got small gap between my four fingers and my thumb.

normal sized sushi. planned to chia my housemate eat one but during that time they weren't at home.

can't wait. so i finished them myself too.

Ramen. Japanese maggie mee. i cooked it my own way. which is wrong for Japanese i think. haha

wadever~ just wanna fill my empty hungry stomach~

Mac!!!! no lah.= = zzz

me kind of one day one apple. but now not that frequent liao.

Teh!!!! black tea.

TEH TARIK!!! no la. i'd just added some milk into the black tea.

but it doesnt taste that good. cuz i didn't add sugar.

weird food.

it's....tomato stuffed with vege and topped with cheese and put in the microwave.

YES! MICROWAVE!!! cuz my apartment got no OVEN! = =zzz

wat a big mistake that ruins my food. but the bread is very nice. crispy with cheesee~~~~

fake roti canai. with lemon honey. and vitamins~~~~~~~~~~

miso? nope....noodles.

ordinary meal. rice with vege with egg with soup. i like the chopstick.haha!

nice to hold and eat rice. wakakaka....

my fried rice. not my normal style.

i'm just get limited by the ingredients, the tools (i only got this pan to fry things which it's not for frying but only cooking soup) and the time (shared the unit with 5 person. nida be fast cuz can't let the others wait too long. they'll get hungry too.)

my coffee~~~~ T_T terharu.

MOONCAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's just nice cuz i missed it too much!!! T_T

french toast with blueberries and carrots. plus milk. woah~~~~~

healthy. but not the french toast.

so i'm trying to avoid much use of oil.

I guess...that's all for this moment.
I nida continue studying.
studying studying studying...
that's my life.
well...i do enjoy sth.
and i'll enjoy at the right time.
cuz i pay to study and learn. not to have holiday and honeymoon here.
ya know wad....i'm studying in the most expensive uni in Aus.
and it is REALLY expensive!!!!

So... finished MST

Done with the two MST (mid-sem test)

BIo and Chem.

I don't think I'd did them well...

but now...
just hope for ok ok result that won't disqualify me from continuing my studies.
just let me proceed to second semester smoothly~
=)

guess I still have to study more.
I'm too lazy.

but maybe because the textbook is too new to me too.
and lecturers and tutors won't go through the text with you.
you have to read them yourselves.

well...
I will!!!!!!!!!!!!
i miss my f6 books.
esp Chem books.
that three thick brothers.
I should have bring them together with me.

cuz i can get what i want to know directly from that book.
the new book...
I don't know where to start.
to know the book,
everything has to be from the start.
that's.....................................jiak lat!
and quite wasteful for short term.

WEll well....
have to spend my holiday WISELY!!!!!!!!!!!
i have to spend day and night reading reading and reading.
then do practices and exercises (Same lah)

I HAVE TO BE EXPERT!!!!!!!!!!!!
wooot!!!!
HWAITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"uni life is about pass or fail. can pass is ok liao"

well.
I never let myself falling into that region.
I WILL NEVER!! NEVER LET MYSELF TO DO TAT!!!!
i have to try my best to score the best i can.

my chemistry is too weak.
though i get A- for my STPM for chem.
it's just because...that year the questions are hard.
i'm lucky to get the A.

i'm still weak.
fragile~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
many things can't remember.
i have to study hard.

here is all about self-study.
i'm too slow.
it's not that i dun wan to ask questions.
it's...
after the lecture, i wanna take time digest.
then baru know what is my problem.
then baru wanna ask questions.
then is too late liao. = =zzz

well....never try never know.
i will still try to look for help for questions taught century ago.
MUAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bless me!

yes!
i can do it! sure! why not?
many ppl can do it.
many ppl can't do it too.
but ignore the latter one.
i wan to be in one of the many that can do it.
why not?

i can. you can. =) jia you!

So now? i'm studying in Brownless Library. but...

1 hr to go.....i'm going to have my choir class later.

before this,
I was in Labyrinth doing my CHEMCAL.
before that. i was searching for computer for my ChemCAL.
then ended up i was in Bio level 5. but can't access CHEMCAL through the com there.
study my chem there for a while.
met Veera. =)

now here...I should be studying my chemistry for the MID SEM TEST tomorrow.
but i'm facebook-ing + maple (fb one)
watching to Jodi's bday video.
listening to my choir recording (thanks to my mum to allow me to buy a recorder, it's very helpful)

well.....................me very gatal now wanna buy the 2$ coffee from the machine in this library.
but it's too expensive cuz it's too small cup.
and feel like eating snacks.
gatal-gatal....
aiyayayaya.

study!
ok.
bye bye.

Proceeding to 2nd month

Ok.....

Mid-sem test.

MID SEM LIAO? ya....= =zzz
actually is 2nd month of studying. dunno why they say it's mid-sem.
mathematically it should be in the mid of sept.

ppl here proceeding fast~~~~
good. i like.

But i haven't study much. needa work hard.
cuz there's TOO MUCH distractions here....
esp FOOD!!!! u can see FOOD everywhere!!!!!
not like in kch....at school
you only find food in canteen.
here...............EVERYWHERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EVERYWHERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think every building has at least two machines selling drinks and snacks.
and outside the teaching building, there's lots of cafeteria and stall.....
HOT CHOCOLATE and coffee is the two most common things in here.
= =zzz

few times beh tahan gatal spend 1 or 2 bucks for a small cup of coffee.
haiz.................................

I miss everything in Kch.
esp food.
things here....b4 i touch them.....i hesitated when i saw the price.............................

it looks the same...
but the unit is TOTALLY DIFFERENT!

i miss my KOLOMEE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~T_T
i  miss kopi and roti kahwin!!!!!
I miss dim sum in kch. (there's a lot here i think. but i havent go try.)
i miss BIG BUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! from FU HAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
T__________________________________T

aiyayayayaya.....i wanna go back i wanna go back. but think tiok the air ticket...
and the mafan i'll have when go airport.
during check in and in the plan for one day. = =zzz sien.

anyway....later going to join the Melbourne Uni Buddhist Society. hehe....
see how is it.
then will decide.
muahahahaha............................

Now baru end of August, i'm thinking of things at the end of year.
YUP! that's the time i go back.
hehehehehehe......................................
wait wait wait.....hope i can sabar and won't go crazy.
must concentrate on my studies!!!!

now the big problems needa solve are MY MID SEM TEST and MY INTERNET ACCESS!!!!

yosh!
bless me! thank you. =)

Who say first week of uni is very relaxing?

I already start finding information and trying to get books to read in the first week already.
cuz the Lecturers are all starting to teach on their first class.
= =zzz and I didn't prepare any notes to there.
I was wondering why i can hear many people flipping papers at the same time when the lecturer moving to the next  slide.
then i found out everyone has the notes printed by themselves through the website.
= =
and i'm the only one DIDNT PREPARE ANYTHING JUST PENCIL AND PAPERS!!!!

= =zzz the lucky thing is.....
most of them still can't really understand what the lecturer had taught and i understand cuz i did them in f6.
Just.......many of them i already can't really remember.
I know there's that thing...but can't remember the details.
so i still need notes and lecture has not much details explained.
I have to find books to read and find more information from the net.

= =zzzz I was kinda very rushy and busy starting from the first week.
the first day was the worst as i get lost and has not much idea how to walk from this class to another class.
and I was late for my Maths tutorial on the first day.
cuz ...................it's a LONG distance which needs me to take around 10 min to walk from my bio lect to the maths tut. cuz one is at left top, another is at right bottom. = =zzz
and the route is kinda complicated.
so i get lost in the middle and with the map wet and koyak-koyak...cuz very soi that day raining!
then bo bien....go ask a gal in the small coffee stall. (it's in the uni)
she was like "Oh.....you're so wet. poor sweetheart " (sth like that which surprise me cuz normally when i saw Aussie they just siam. she is very welcoming and friendly)
then finally thanks to her, i get to know how to go to my maths tute.

other than running from one classes to another.
i still need to walk from here to there and there to there to find the books and materials or tools needed for practicals and textbooks too.

so......................it's not nth much to do.
it's  A LOT TO DO! cuz u know nth....and the info wont come to u.
you have to search for them!
and esp when u go to a country u never been...it's busier as u need to walk around to search for places
other than subjects, u also need to study the map!
and THIS PLACE IS JUST TOO BIG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no wonder ppl here have to eat more.
cuz the energy consumed per day is HIGH!!!!!!
and cold some more.

but i always sweat cuz walking too much.

the second day is still ok as my timetable for tuesday is not packed. instead....very free.
but...........
the choir class only starts at 4 sth and ends at 6 sth.
and 5 sth here already become dark liao.
so 6 sth is totally dark and when i walk back from the class to my place.....
i nearly go to the city and get lost.
LUCKILY there's SIGN!!!!!!!!!!!!
thank to the good organising system in AUSTRALIA!
if it's like Malaysia....i'm sure to go to the city and sleep at the roadside.

furthermore.................
my life is much busier that i have to cook myself....wash my clothes.
arrange my things.
buy food.
cook water (extra thing which it's not common in Msia anymore cuz many houses got the filter liao)

everyday have to plan my time to do this and that and my schedule is always full.
and that actually makes me not much time to study in the first week.
luckily i did f6. so not a burden yet.
now trying to keep everything steady so i can spend more time study.
and the book here is so damn thick with thick and hard cover somemore which makes me miss my f6 books.
T_T
and very loso.
i complained that f6 is too complicated and too much things which sometimes make ppl confuse what they mean. esp chem.
but now i miss them cuz the books here quite loso. even tell you why you need to study this.
eg "why do you need to study this? Even though you might have did it before but to get further into the chapters, you will need to understand this first." <<< sth like that lah. i write with my own words.
and i read for 15 min...there's no important point....which kinda wasted my time.
but good thing is...you don't feel stress lah.
cuz too many important points packed in a passage makes you hin hin and have to read slow.
well.....depends lo.
since i sold my chem books and left my bio books at home....
i only can buy the books here or borrow from library.
but it's always for overnight loan nia.= =zzz
everyday have to carry that heavy book to uni to return and carry it back to borrow it.
= =zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
that book is too heavy and hard to carry cuz of the thick cover.

now i think this is a good reason for me to explain to my friends why i always carry so many things and heavy bag in school.
that's to train me for this! to carry the heavy book from uni to my place and my place to uni!
the only training i'm lack of is.......walking!
= =zzz
i feel like an ah pek.

muscles very "sour" and sakit at the shoulder, arms, legs.

haiz...................more trainings to go.
so never tell your friends or siblings that going uni is very relaxing.
unless you go local la...should be still ok.
but the orientation not ok too.
so get prepared. and be active.
i'm still learning to be active.
cuz that's the only way to survive.
if u're passive, you get nth.
cuz the info won't come to you.
it's you go to them.
same to friends.
some might very active that they will talk to you automatically.
but most.....they just won't go to u automatically.

well.....start late is better than never.
i'm starting to learn from now too.
just...if you got the chance to learn earlier....it's of course better.
and never relax when you should not.

AND!
enjoy your holiday !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it's long enough to get you lazy.
so plan your holiday.
do something instead of watching movies and playing games.
go out to play or gather with friends.
or go to learn sth fun.
just don't idle!

wish you all good luck.
wish me good luck too.

ALL THE BEST!

Get set, Ready, GO!

Yeap!

quite fast.
a week gone.

Tomorrow will be my first day to attend class.
Anyway...my timetable still haven't settle.
there's a clash.

well.....
we'll see how on monday (if i am able to speak to my Student Centre)
Wish everything is ok (esp my timetable and textbooks and workbooks and lab kit and coat)
A lot more things to do and know and learn.

I'm still having my time.

Anyway....
Everyday I'm watching PPS and on FB.

sounds like i'm quite free and nth to do.
oh come on.......................................
I'm not a person that can let myself sit there and do nothing.
so i filled my schedule without any gap.

and that makes me recover from homesick faster. =D
but still homesick is hard to get rid of.

but now is better liao lah.

Hopefully everything is ok and goes smooth.
I don't want to make myself into troubles.

PRAY!!!!!
amitabha.

here in Melbourne

today is the first day of orientation.

Still quite confuse for everything because i'd missed my Academic Advise Day.
So I cant enrol in subjects yet. I feel unsecure cuz it feels like i'm the one havent enrol and the closing date is on Friday 22 July. which is very near already.
I have to go for the appointment made with my Student Adviser on thursday.
then only can enrol
that nite must be very busy as i have to rush to enrol in my subjects and
the next day have to go get my ID card
then have to arrange my timetable
then enrol for my timetable/classes
then friday got a lot more to attend.
advices, tips and informations for international students.
saturday still got a trip to museum. will be going with Christian group.

ah~
busy days.
all the schedules are very packed.
many things to learn yet.
many people to get to know.

what ever it is....i just hope i dun  miss my time to finish my enrolment and can get my timetable.
and dun miss any courses that i shud complete.
and dun miss any classes.
and hope i can finish my degree faster or at least in time.

TONS of arrangements have to be made.
this is quite sien.
but i'm used to it cuz the same as in f6.
just that i'm quite lazy after that long holiday. - -zzzz

well...no point to blame on the things that had happened.
look forward and refer to the back, never repeat the same wrong steps and solve anything that comes.

bless me bless you bless everyone.
Amitabha.
every morning and nite i'll be praying. just hope i can continue. cuz sometimes uni students are quite busy till no time to sleep. i must sleep early, wake up early. do things completely.
ah....hard.
but i have to.
to make myself able to follow up the steps.
never slow down.
but there's too much attraction.
haiz.
wish i can deal with it.
Amitabha.

Forget about the umbrella when it's not raining

Let's not talk about the future.

a lot of predictions can be made.
so that a lot of preparations can be done.
and so, risk can be lowered or danger can be avoided.

true.

but sometimes,

just forget about everything and relax.

many people did lots of preparation just for the future they'd expected.

do we ever think of, "what if the future we'd been expecting, is totally different when it comes?"

DO A LOT MORE OF PREPARATIONS!

- - man....give me a break.

of course, me myself will prepare myself for everything that i think might happen in my future.
and i really did quite a lot of preparation.
well...when the time has come, i just do whatever i can do. If, it's out of my expectation,
i'll just do what i can think of at that time to solve it.

I don't force myself to think of EVERY SINGLE possibility of the future.
cuz...
that burns my brain cells.

ya know....brain cells are very fragile and important...
so i just let myself relax when i feel frustrated.

I don't care if i'm not yet done with my preparations.
I just want to relax.
I know if I don't let myself relax, I'll die faster.
that waste all of my preparations.


Plans.
ya.
important.
but you need to leave some space for other possibilities that no one can expect, even yourself.

so, just relax and get prepared for unexpected things.

if u're tired.....esp mentally tired, it's harder for you to act immediately when needed.
this....baru is BRILLIANT.

in this world....
anything could happen.
so never think you can expect everything that is coming to you.
leave more spaces behind it.

you'll live a better life.
never be too confident.

of course, never loss your confidence.

everything has to be in the middle range.
never on the extreme.
cuz the happiest and unhappiest normally happen on the one that's on the extreme.

learn the nature of this world.
you'll find how cute this world is.

and never complain.
unless complain is just to relax yourself.
i mean....like....vomiting the bad things out u've been eating.

well.....stilll......

bless me
bless you
bless everyone.

知足

知足是人生在世最大的幸事。——爱迪生






现在的年轻人。。。噢，不对。是很多人　（包括中年人，小孩等等）都不懂得知足。


知足，
容易说，
难做到。


可是，
很多人都会说：“讲容易讲，做就难咯！”
然后就拍拍屁股走了。。。


从不曾去努力过。






大多数人对食物，衣服，包包，生活用品，饮料，车，椅子，桌子，笔，纸 等等
都会做批评。


“这只虾煮太熟”
“这肉不新鲜”
“这衣服的这边，有一条线跑出来了，有没有更好的？”
“这个包包的拉链有点不搭。”
“这杯饮料太淡了吧？”
“这个车的椅子不是那么好坐”
“这桌子有点摇”
“这个笔不好用”
“这个纸的quality比较差”




我说：
你有虾好吃，就该高兴了。人家吃了还会敏感，会痒，甚至会肿，还会死掉。
你有肉好吃，该笑了。 人家只有一点米放多水煮给全家人吃。
别人没衣服好穿，冬天还会冻死。只不过是一条线。
包包没拉链，要吗？
人家在沙漠，尿都甘愿喝。
人家只有双腿来行万里路。
人家穷小孩只能趴在地上写功课。




好了。。。不说了。
知足啊。


不要等到你没了，才说 “早知道。。。”
不早了。


bless you.

ridiculous? nah...this is the so called "LIFE"

Fair?

there's no FAIR in this world.
no the SnowWhite - fair lady....
neither Fun Fair or Edu Fair....or Food Fair

it's a kind of balance.
the balance between something and something.

Well....there's nothing as such in our life.
If there is..........the people of a Country, won't have much complains.
If there is..........there won't have people who are very RICH and people who are DAMN POOR.
If there is.........there won't be some people can get what they want while the others got nothing.
IF there IS......I won't get rejected by NUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

no la....actually i'm not that mad that i got rejected.
I'm just no happy because they let me wait for so long that i have to rush to apply for another University.
and in actual fact, I didn't wait till I get the rejection letter from them, I already accept an offer from Melbourne U.

THIS IS BECAUSE...................Melbourne had waited for me for around two months....or more....
just want to know if i want to accept or reject their offer.
and I realised I'll have a short time to prepare everything when my agent IDP called me to ask me decide faster.
That time I was emo-ing about my friend got an offer from NUS while i'm not.

Then...later....I checked the ranking of Us at somewhere....cant remember. I only remember that i get the link from fb.
I found out the overall ranking of NUS is slightly higher than U. of Melb. NUS got 28 while Melb got 30.
However, for bio-related science courses, Melb got 28 while NUS got 30.
well....maybe there's much more Asians in NUS, the maths related courses got higher ranking than Melb.
But I dun care cuz i din get the Maths course. (but might be.....cuz my major might get into maths region.)
NVM~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ it's just a little bit of difference.
The ranking doesn't mean you will get better results.

Still...it depends on your own.

but......actually.....I was kinda affected by the ranking.
That's why..............a person who never thought of going overseas for further studies has became the only f6 student in my class (U6S1) that flies the furthest away from Malaysia.

I remembered I'd told my friends that I never want to fly that far. Hard to come back...
and Imagine....as a Chinese.....a very Chinese punya Chinese,
got no CNY to celebrate for THREE YEARS!!!!!!!!!!
I earned the most during my CNY and tat's my main income............
NOW I HAVE TO MISS IT FOR THREE YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

T_T

but I accepted the offer. so .... who ask me loh!
- -....know lah. no nid remind.

and.....my friend, ELyssa....since very young.....
she wanted to go overseas.
She dreamed of studying at overseas. joining their parties.
having the same culture as them.
watch hot dudes.

but then....when I invited her to go for Aus Edu Fair together with me, She rejected.
I told her I applied for NUS, she's like "oh...." not really interested.

Ya.....know la. She dun like Aus that much. Singapore is Asian Country.
She wants somewhere like London.

ok.....but...

she didn't even think of applying U overseas.
She stayed in MSia....
already accept the offer.

Two of us are like........................totally terbalik.
tat's why.....it's RIDICULOUS.
me never think of going out......fly the furthest away among my friends.
she never think of staying here..stayed here.
me never think of going crazy and dress up myself with good looking clothes and dye my hair....will be going to a uni that i'm allowed to do these.
she wishes to be herself and get free....wear nice clothes instead of uniform and dye her hair.......will be going to a uni that strictly doesnt allow her to do these.



today...happened one ridiculous thing too.
I was offered a scholarship from Melbourne U.
but the deadline is on 28 June. today is 5 July.
i was like.............
errr...................prank?

luckily it's not. I asked them bout that...they immediately reply me that they'd change the date.

now i got hard time to decide again. cuz my dad dun wan me to get scholarship as there's bond.
but i want to save cost....

so dunno.
no bond also very good.
got bond....also ok ar. i can get experience there straight after i graduate.

haiz....dunno

some more ridiculous things.
My friend who get offer from NUS for pharmacy and get scholarship too....get rejected by the no. 1 local U in Malaysia. she got 4 As for her STPM. funny, right?
local dun wan her.....Singapore take her.
and She also get straight A1 for her SPM.
she failed to get JPA scholarship.

Me and two of my friends....get offer from the no. 1 Local U in Msia....reject the offer and choose the overseas uni.
ha.

haiz haiz..................

Things happened in life are always like this.
most of them won't be able to happen in the exact way you want/wish.

SO i never care how my future will be. I just plan so that I know how to walk my next step.
I'm always prepared to any changes. though I hate sudden change. but i'd did it many times already.
cincai lo.
Looking back at the steps you'd walked......for me....
Watch it for a while is ok. Stared at it....regretting....or.....fall into it....
tat's unnecessary and One cant proceed if he's like this.


活在当下

learnt this during a camp....few years back.
I couldn't understand at that time.

but now.........................
I'm practising it in my life. cuz tat's how u should enjoy your life.
yes of course you need to look at the front ...as far as you can and at the back to prevent the similar wrong steps. but....just for a while.
too much in it....u'll just get stuck. never proceed.


learn to deal.
never ask others to deal with you.

I'll only ask others to deal with me if
- i'm close to them
- I know they cant make the main decision. they cant be the decider.

but of course i'll listen to many opinions first before make the decision.
not easy to make a good decision too.

sometimes just feel like scratch my head till it cracks...ouch....

It's time to leave. the busiest June and July

Starting from June, busy preparing for IELTS.
finish IELTS, busy for my fren bday party.

finish the party, gonna busy for MCE symposium and the concert.
a lot of paperwork for preparation.
till the day of the symposium, need to do registration, dealing with lots of papers too.
and need to take their meals.
run here and there.
even help to take care of those candidates for PBSM exams.
kena scolded cuz i was tired already and cant do things accurately.
even lost concentration. and my teacher is in a........kinteo, stress mode.
so her mood not that good too.
so i'll sure to get scolded if i do sth wrong.

actually at the same time of having the symposium i have to go get my IELTS result.
I should do the payment and everything after getting the result but i was busying for the symposium....
so I put it aside for few days.
then straight after the concert....

though i'd went to relax, drinking chocolate milk shake with my fren, crazy around and play around with Jeremy's car....
still i'm exhausted cuz i know i got not much time to rest. i nid to continue with my preparation to go to Melbourne.
the next day...
do payment. print a lot of documents.
sign this and that. fill this and that.

go here and there.....i feel green (sick).

not only these. i still need to constantly bring my sis to work and pick her back.
it's near Hock Lee there. damn hate it.
cuz the traffic jam is so annoying. and a lot of drivers keep making troubles that can be avoided.

my mood recently really has turned very bad.

now my accommodation still haven't settled.
visa haven't get.

that time booking for air ticket lagi mau muntah blood.
hardly can find the flight.
many no more available. = =zzz
luckily still got Air Asia. but the price is damn expensive. T_T....


this time.....I'm like get chopped on the neck. the blood has been bursting out like the fountain.

i haven't reach Aus i'm already thinking of finding job.

students normally thinking of what to do on the registration day, during the orientation week, during the class.
me skipped all those and thinking of where to find the bulletin board to find cheaper homestay and part-time job.
and start thinking bout my holiday already.

haiz.........................................

well.....wish me all the best.
i'm a very confused person.
hope everything will be ok and welly done.

have to pray everyday...............................

still no rest.
and many more farewell party to attend. = =zzz
get scolded by mum.
but my friends won't understand and still want me to join.
ok loh. since i wont be back so frequently. but hopefully i'm not in a rush anymore.
hopefully i can arrange everything accordingly and do them properly.

haiz haiz.....
WISH WISH!!!! i wish i have a wishing well with fairymother living in there to hear to my every wishes. and make them all come true.

well......it's just a dream.
i know when to wake up.
dream is to let me relax for a while.

rest is very important for me to continue the next step.
so dun scold me to dream unnecessary things.

Special Birthday CArd for Elyssa

errr.....lazy to describe liao.

it's considered as my 2011 product.

so wanna post bout it.

never forget bout it.

yeah.

erm...i'll sound so wrong to wish my fren happy birthday again.

cuz...........it's long time ago liao.

well....then...

just pictures =)