Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Time to go University

= =zzzz

After get my result.....
next question : Where to go???


apply this and that....
haiz....tired man!

lagi mafan de is the UPU ppl dun hiu me. let my problem unsolved for more than one month!!!

damn !

luckily during that time Pilihan Raya sedang dijalankan.
or else, i won't get any help to solve my problem.
a simple problem that can be solved just by  a few minutes.
they made me waited for more than one month.
= =zzz

but still....
i aim for Singapore.
NUS.
and i only apply for this. no NTU.
My parents said me stupid just to apply for NUS....

- -zzz i feel insecure bout NTU mah~~~~ i dunno why also.


then follow friend to apply for Australia.
applied for Sydney and Melbourne.

and....
i was accepted.
now just wait me sit for IELTS and everything can be done and i can fly to there.

the problem is.........
it's far.
it's expensive.
my English isn't that good. i'll get bullied for sure.
and IELTS is expensive. RM 550 for once.
if i fail to achieve the minimum requirement (6.5 and above) to enter Uni of Melbourne & Sydney
i need to pay another RM 550.
and i tried very hard that i just can get a low band 5 for MUET.
IELTS????? = =zzzzz

of course i'll go for Melbourne if i fail to enter NUS.

the problem now is.......
Singapore still haven't reply me.
I don't know whether i'm accepted or rejected.

I wish to know earlier so that i can let IDP (agent that helps me to apply for Australia uni) knows
whether i want to accept the offer or reject the offer.

and IDP has been waiting for me for...i think one month already or more than that.

haiz....

everyone expect me leaving Malaysia.
including myself.

but what if....
I fail to enter NUS. and i missed the chance to accept the offer from Uni of Melbourne?
= =zzz i'll stay here...........................................................

well....the advantage is....
it's much cheaper.
but i cant learn much here.

i'm afraid of strangers and places i've never been.
and i'll definitely get home sick.
who doesn't?
but i should consider what i can learn instead of those things.

in my opinion,
we need to learn more than we can.
those small cases (esp ur feeling....like dun feel like leaving ur home town, apart from your friends, etc)
should be ignored.
cuz tat's a kind of training.

we need to grow.
we need to overcome our fear.
so accept the challenge.

now i'm prepared for the challenges.
but somehow..........................................................
macam NUS doesn't want to accept me = =zzz
(because my fren kena interview for ASEAN undergraduate scholarship and i din. which sounds like i wont get the scholarship. there's higher possibility that i'm not chosen for NUS and i want that scholarship. though when compare with my fren who get the interview, i dun seems like i need it. BUT I DO NEED IT!!!!!!= =zzz i dun wan to spend so much of my parents' money. it's still very expensive to study in Singapore even though it's cheaper than Australia.and they said tuition fees for international students in Singapore increases for about 60%....tat's horrible.)

maybe i think too much.

pray hard.

do bless me.
don't curse me.

= =zzz i work so hard for f6 just to aim higher.
i dun wan to waste all my hard work just to stay in Malaysia.
cuz.............it's really.............................................................
i dunno. if u dun understand, ask more......esp uni students. they will tell u a lot!!!!!!!!!!!!

why i know????
i GOT A LOT OF UNI FRENS!!!!! from different places in Malaysia.
not only Swinburne friends.
tat's still ok.
i mean Local Uni.

ahem......go ask them.

for me.....most of the brilliant one...
cuz staying here...no money go outside......
they've graduate as not the excellent one.
they can be excellent among Malaysian students.
but.......haiz.....
u know i know lah....T_T


but i've been prepared for the worst.
if i stay in Malaysia.
i wont let myself just like that.
i'll try my best to study more than what lecturer can teach.
i'll try to learn more than what i can learn.
then.....i'll try hard to get any chance to go outside (As sometimes ppl from outside like Japan or Korea will invite Malaysian students to go over their country to attend some programs.)
and...............! I AM SURE PLANNING TO STUDY MASTER / PhD OVERSEAS!!!!!
i wont end myself as a degree holder.


so....do bless me.
thank you. bless me, bless yourself too. =)

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