Thursday, April 28, 2011

Way to Singapore? I'm not sure.

T_T.......

first my friend who got 4.00 for STPM told me that she'd informed to go for an interview for ASEAN undergraduate scholarship.

and me, i got none.
which means.......there's no hope for scholarship. BUT I STILL HOPE FOR MIRACLE.
and that scholarship is automatically applied when u apply for NUS.

so at the same time....
the probability of me being accepted by NUS is....lower.

I tried to let myself not to think too much.
but days after days....
I seems like having mental problem.......

I can't stop worrying bout it........

now, my friend, the same one, told me that her application outcome is out.
and mine.......no news yet.

the probability goes lower......

but still i'm hoping for it.
I'm still praying.

yeah.......things haven't come to its end yet.
I'm too worried about it.
我承认我非常急性子。

I hardly can let myself cool down........
cuz I feel unsecure when i can't smell what is coming!!!!
IT's like U're in a big sea....
ur foot step nothing......
ur hand grab nothing....
you can't breath...........
you can't see...............


Now i got no mood for other things.
I can't even help my mum to prepare meals.
My friend this morning invite me to go KL together on june.
I rejected. partly is because that time should be the time i prepare everything for university though i still got no idea which uni i'm entering.
another reason is I got no mood to think about it.
And there's a promise to sleep over together with my friend Elyssa.
I got no mood....to think about it now. but i wont break the promise don't worry.

Plus, She'd just tagged me in a post in Facebook, for a concert thingy i think. something about choir.
this saturday nite. asking if i wanna go.
Sincerely, i got no mood.
Unless tomorrow Singapore send me a letter that i've been accepted then i'll immediately say Yes to everything........................erm.....things that's not beyond my limit.


Well.....
bless me.........T_T..........................................
bless you too..................................................

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