Holiday?
holiday?
hooray or = =zzz
i'll choose = =zzz
cuz now i'm = =zzz
students always wanna get holidays.
but not me.
esp long holiday.
except holiday for me to do sth to catch up sth.
me...alone...din get a job during this long holiday.
for me, it's not holiday.
it's long days for me to wait for the result.
result of me going to which Uni to study.
i do nothing just to wait.
i cant do anything pun.
except for continue improving my English, which i found it went the opposite way, and keep reading my biology again plus chemistry as both these subjects are related to the courses i applied for uni. (but i din read them = =zzz)
gathering....gathering...gathering...
some projects with friends.
chatting chatting chatting....
well, it's very relaxing.
yeah...it's too relaxing that i feel insecure bout it.
how can i'm so relax while the others are so busy?
my mind is getting rust. rosak. like the machine.
use too much it'll get burned.
din use for too long. it wont work much anymore. = =zzz
i hardly can solve a simple math question. = =zzz that Jeremy asked me to help solve questions tat his students got problem with.
actually he wanna hao lian. but it's me too stupid. the question is really simple but i just couldn't remember how to solve it and so me kena laughed by that evil JEremy. = =zzz
I USED TO SO HAO LIAN BOUT MY MATHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
though i'm not the top of the top. but i'm good in it! i used to be teacher of my friends! T_T
now........ - -...
but if u ask me to do some questions to practise myself...
duh....
"Lazy" i'll reply u.
actually i'm really free like...nothing to do except sitting in front of my laptop after i'm awake and before i go to sleep.
but i'm mentally not really free.
i'm tired.
this to 烦 that to 烦.
as long as i still get any reply from NUS i will still mentally not free.
I dun have much mood to play around.
ya lah....if u jio me out, i'll still out.
but the mood...it's like....if it's 以前, my mood to go out would be 8 - 10 (10 as full mark)
but now....even if i'm out...my mood wound be only 6-8.
i can tell u i feel like going to sing k.
i wanna watch movie.
but the mood....still lower than usual.
guess it's because of the NUS刺, just like 榴莲刺still stuck in my heart.
i cant enjoy things freely.
i'm not down. i'm not unhappy.
it's just me...now....is EXTREMELY Neutral.
no high....no low.
i wont go excited, neither down.
i cant help too.
my friends so excited jio me out.
me reply them with cold voice. give them cold respond. even with a yes.
just like a robot saying "yes" ...very dead.
but i just couldn't help mah!
the fire in my heart is gone.
but dun worry.
it'll be back. just after the 刺被拔出来.
and very tired ar.
recently hardly can sleep well.
even i'm on my bed.
closing my eyes.
waiting for deep sleep.
maybe 心中的小石头还不能放下, i hardly can get into deep sleep.
row here and there...
no lah.
just flip and flop.
after get into deep sleep...
a while a while will wake up too.
= =zzz that one lagi tiring.
but what to do boh!
i'm not the type that can say run then me immediately run.
u nida give me time to be mentally prepared.
that's why.
i'm keep things away from disturbing me to be mentally prepared for uni.
i know nothing bout uni.
i dunno what should i prepare.
things to buy?
documents to prepare?
passport?
books?
fees?
bank?
and i have to prepare all those things by myself.
none of my family member will arrange those things for me.
休想！this is the style of my family.
do all the things by urself！
tat's why i nid time to prepare.
cuz i know nothing bout it.
and i know it'll be very troublesome if i din prepare those important things well.
anyway....
i still wanna go sing k. =]
holiday?
hooray or = =zzz
i'll choose = =zzz
cuz now i'm = =zzz
students always wanna get holidays.
but not me.
esp long holiday.
except holiday for me to do sth to catch up sth.
me...alone...din get a job during this long holiday.
for me, it's not holiday.
it's long days for me to wait for the result.
result of me going to which Uni to study.
i do nothing just to wait.
i cant do anything pun.
except for continue improving my English, which i found it went the opposite way, and keep reading my biology again plus chemistry as both these subjects are related to the courses i applied for uni. (but i din read them = =zzz)
gathering....gathering...gathering...
some projects with friends.
chatting chatting chatting....
well, it's very relaxing.
yeah...it's too relaxing that i feel insecure bout it.
how can i'm so relax while the others are so busy?
my mind is getting rust. rosak. like the machine.
use too much it'll get burned.
din use for too long. it wont work much anymore. = =zzz
i hardly can solve a simple math question. = =zzz that Jeremy asked me to help solve questions tat his students got problem with.
actually he wanna hao lian. but it's me too stupid. the question is really simple but i just couldn't remember how to solve it and so me kena laughed by that evil JEremy. = =zzz
I USED TO SO HAO LIAN BOUT MY MATHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
though i'm not the top of the top. but i'm good in it! i used to be teacher of my friends! T_T
now........ - -...
but if u ask me to do some questions to practise myself...
duh....
"Lazy" i'll reply u.
actually i'm really free like...nothing to do except sitting in front of my laptop after i'm awake and before i go to sleep.
but i'm mentally not really free.
i'm tired.
this to 烦 that to 烦.
as long as i still get any reply from NUS i will still mentally not free.
I dun have much mood to play around.
ya lah....if u jio me out, i'll still out.
but the mood...it's like....if it's 以前, my mood to go out would be 8 - 10 (10 as full mark)
but now....even if i'm out...my mood wound be only 6-8.
i can tell u i feel like going to sing k.
i wanna watch movie.
but the mood....still lower than usual.
guess it's because of the NUS刺, just like 榴莲刺still stuck in my heart.
i cant enjoy things freely.
i'm not down. i'm not unhappy.
it's just me...now....is EXTREMELY Neutral.
no high....no low.
i wont go excited, neither down.
i cant help too.
my friends so excited jio me out.
me reply them with cold voice. give them cold respond. even with a yes.
just like a robot saying "yes" ...very dead.
but i just couldn't help mah!
the fire in my heart is gone.
but dun worry.
it'll be back. just after the 刺被拔出来.
and very tired ar.
recently hardly can sleep well.
even i'm on my bed.
closing my eyes.
waiting for deep sleep.
maybe 心中的小石头还不能放下, i hardly can get into deep sleep.
row here and there...
no lah.
just flip and flop.
after get into deep sleep...
a while a while will wake up too.
= =zzz that one lagi tiring.
but what to do boh!
i'm not the type that can say run then me immediately run.
u nida give me time to be mentally prepared.
that's why.
i'm keep things away from disturbing me to be mentally prepared for uni.
i know nothing bout uni.
i dunno what should i prepare.
things to buy?
documents to prepare?
passport?
books?
fees?
bank?
and i have to prepare all those things by myself.
none of my family member will arrange those things for me.
休想！this is the style of my family.
do all the things by urself！
tat's why i nid time to prepare.
cuz i know nothing bout it.
and i know it'll be very troublesome if i din prepare those important things well.
anyway....
i still wanna go sing k. =]
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