should give up

thinking of wad i'm going to do...

i might not be able to go back hometown like what i said to friends before i left.
i might not be going back for 2 years continuously.

why?
i'm going to write my CV and send to my lecturer, applying for a "part time" job in the famous biochem institute.
if i get the job, it might starts in june or july....
then it'll take one year.

this takes up my winter and summer holiday. till the next winter holiday.
and i don't think i'm going back during winter holiday.

let's assume i'm going back every year end.
skipping this year end. it takes me two years to another year end.

just like what i said
i might take two years not going back
not seeing my friends
not having fun with my lovely PA gp members
not having kolomee (my most favourite kuching food)

and if i continue to Master program

i'll take another two years to stay in Aus. but for sure i'll go back...i think
cuz i don't have any plan for year end yet.
and i will try to avoid any plan that falls on that duration.

i want go back.
i want faidi go back.

anyway...talk back to the topic

though i said i'll let the feeling fade out
but
it seems like i tak rela to let it go

but these days...
a while happy a while thinking we might have future
a while thinking we don't have future
so let go.

now...it seems like i should really let go....